Man was last week rough. Lots of snow, it was cold, I was sick, I found out I need $2,000 of work done on my car, my friend is moving away (for incredibly noble and justifiable reasons don’t get me wrong), needless to say it was a tough week. While I’ve made serious strides at not letting my emotions dictate my food intake this series of events set off the perfect storm, leading me to consume an entire bag of Popcorn Indiana Aged Cheddar Popcorn (it is really good stuff…it’s even won snack awards! How can I become a snack awards judge? Sorry, moving on.). Don’t get me wrong, I realize it could have been WAY worse. I could have picked a gallon of mocha chip ice cream or an entire bag of “fun sized” Reece’s Peanut Butter Cups. In the grand scheme of things a huge bag of popcorn isn’t that bad. BUT what was worse was the disappointment in myself that followed. As I consumed my last bowl-full of popcorn I glanced over at the empty bag on my kitchen counter and immediately felt regret and disappointment. It’s amazing how one minute you can be on top of the world and the next you come plummeting down.
I was talking to a couple friends on the phone this weekend and mentioned the popcorn munch-fest and both responded the exact same way, completely independently of one another! “Good for you!” That was the response. Now I know that for some bindge eating is a very serious matter and that this behavior should not be positively reinforced, but in this case their approval released a valve that was under serious pressure inside me. Yes I consumed an extraordinary amount of popcorn, yes it cost me a million (ok, 26) Weight Watcher Points, but it did not destroy me. I tracked the points and moved on. This has been one of the best lessons I’ve learned in my Weight Watchers meetings.
I think it’s a lesson that applies to more than food intake. It’s easy to think about all the bad decisions we’ve made and dwell on them and play out “what if” scenarios to undo the things we have done. But at the end of the day that behavior isn’t going to do you much good. I’m not saying it’s easy…it’s not! It’s damn hard. Everyone makes bad decisions. Everyone wishes they were able to go back and change them, but unless Doc manages to get that DeLorean up and running in real life it’s not gonna happen. It’s not about the mistake. It’s about what you choose to do next. I choose to track it and move on.